Whatever the Lord's reason is for me and for others going through this experience, I know it is good. We are in unique positions to achieve things people who fully identify themselves in one set of culture alone cannot achieve. It'll be interesting to see what it is when His time comes to reveal it.
Thank God Valerie is around this two weeks for holiday. We met up tonight together with another friend.
It was particularly very good to have Valerie around because she was my junior in secondary school, junior in college and junior at EyeBeeAm. I always felt a little bad helping her to get into Hell, but seems like she is surviving much better than I ever did.
To have someone so intricately weaved into my past as she is, is a real blessing and joy to have around in times when I feel just slightly bit lost.
Lost in the sense that my past is slowly ceasing to be a strong steering compass for me and I can no longer depend on it as a trusted repeatable pattern I can rely on to bet on a predicted outcome. My present is nothing like my past and my future depends too much on my present and so I feel the weight of doubt pressing on me.
"What if I make the wrong decision today, which will affect my tomorrows?" whispers Doubt.
But Hope and Faith continues to protect me. If only they can urge Boldness to stop peeking from that corner over there and join them.
I'm convinced on influencing her to resign and join me in the UK. I'll be a happy duck if she does.
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